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result of the proceeding. After the feast the memory for a while sustains the happiness. And in due time the anticipation of another feast brings further joy. Ambition has bred more joy than the goals it sought for. We grow gradually rich, and we think we should thereby grow gradually happier, attaining that oh which our joy seems to depend. But it proves otherwise: for rich, from the rich man, is generally as far as from the poor. Beginning life, we would be content with ten thousand: we gain this, and riches are still ahead; reaching a hundred thousand, if we formally pause there, we soon find it as hard to keep our wealth as if we were gaining more; at best we are no happier than at first. The first dollar earned, like the first love of the heart, is a joy that comes but once. What we gain in pride over our wealth we lose in the carelessness of poverty, or the excitement of eager ambition. But if, with a philosophical spirit, we sought a hundred thousand, gained it, and have enough, then it is not long till we learn that money is not what we want. We would give half our wealth for some one's health, strength, beauty, wit, spirit, fame—something which heretofore we did not care or wish for. And if we have all—wit and fame, knowledge and influence, spirit and standing, health and hope, tact and success, we shall not live long. Nature cannot support such prodigality; and in a quarrel, or with some disease, she cuts the darling off.

Now why is this—the thing that pleases us to-day, and makes us happy, has not the power to do it to-morrow? There is but one reason: we have outgrown it. The soul has expanded, and that thing