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LAaveHING Boy 219 — I do not know. There is something wrong, always something hidden. She is always hiding something. Let us go North, go North, to T'o Tlakai! Oh, my mother! When I told her about her weaving; when we rode together that time, then she needed me, then I, too, was strong. We were happiest then, both of us. Sheis stronger; it is she who leads me. I am afraid to speak to her. He stopped short and clutched his hands together. Why? I am afraid to lose her. Am I losing . | myself? Oh, I do not know, I do not know; this £8 life she has had, this wisdom of hers. What went on before? Who was the man, and what does Red Man know? Perhaps if I spoke to her, she would say no. She makes her own life. I am | | losing myself. And I cannot leave her, Came | With War, Came With War. Oh, no, can't leave | her. She would say ‘No,” and I should say ‘All right,” and then I should be dead. How long will it be before we are rich enough to suit her? Why will she not herd sheep? All . women do. I do not know. This American life she has led, she will not leave such things. It is | my enemy. Our life is not good enough for her. She wants so much money. A year, another year, who knows? So long, long. When will