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STUDENT LIFE
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that he could only press her hand and say, “It’s all right, Janey.” Something choked him again.
Janey lay silent awhile, looking at him. Then her other hand wandered to her throat and, dropping her eyes, she said, “I’m sorry, Jim— — —”.
She knew that Jim would never have blamed her, but woman-like she wanted him to say it.
When he was silent she asked “Do you hate me so much?” But she knew what the answer would be.
Jim swallowed hard and burst out amazedly, “I, my God! I?”
She smiled, but something hurt her. She knew that though she had won the man she had lost the boy,—forever, for boys do not say “My God!”, at least not that way.
SOUL PANGS.
Fr. Ivan Kramoris
You cannot keep that conscience still with blots
Upon your soul; it haunts you in the night.
It haunts you all the day; a thorn among
Your pleasures, yea! a grief amidst your woes;
Distraction in your prayer it is, for how
Can God be pleased with you, when gold you cast
In mud. ‘Tis like a sea of inky hew
By which you are engulfed, you feel its slime,
You feel the poisonous vermine bite; the gnats
They ride your brain, your lungs are pierced with stench
Of stagnant sloughs, your heart is one big pen
Of maddened pangs that cry within its rooms.
Upon your soul; it haunts you in the night.
It haunts you all the day; a thorn among
Your pleasures, yea! a grief amidst your woes;
Distraction in your prayer it is, for how
Can God be pleased with you, when gold you cast
In mud. ‘Tis like a sea of inky hew
By which you are engulfed, you feel its slime,
You feel the poisonous vermine bite; the gnats
They ride your brain, your lungs are pierced with stench
Of stagnant sloughs, your heart is one big pen
Of maddened pangs that cry within its rooms.
And in that formeless water, that cavern of
The mad, you think of death’s dark angel who
Is lurking near, to hold you there. The blot
Of his pollution, he craves to share with you;
To laugh at God’s great goodness, in pride and in
Derision mocking another soul’s downfall.
The mad, you think of death’s dark angel who
Is lurking near, to hold you there. The blot
Of his pollution, he craves to share with you;
To laugh at God’s great goodness, in pride and in
Derision mocking another soul’s downfall.
Your will is struck with horror, it kindless hopes and fears,
Death’s image is before you there; and lo
Its suffering too; you die alone, appear alone
Before the throne of God. Your best friend you’ve
Offended, you see it now so clear, and hope
Once more blooms in your heart; ’mid thunder and
The Storm you see a guiding ray of light;
And on thru all that slime, you crawl to kneel
Once more in sorrow and in hope, you go
To kneel at Mercy’s feet, to hear with joy
The words of love, “Son, go and sin no more.”
Death’s image is before you there; and lo
Its suffering too; you die alone, appear alone
Before the throne of God. Your best friend you’ve
Offended, you see it now so clear, and hope
Once more blooms in your heart; ’mid thunder and
The Storm you see a guiding ray of light;
And on thru all that slime, you crawl to kneel
Once more in sorrow and in hope, you go
To kneel at Mercy’s feet, to hear with joy
The words of love, “Son, go and sin no more.”
WINTER—PIECE.
By Charles J. Heitzman.
Ashen and old is the wrinkled earth,
Old and gray the sky;
The last pale flame of the fire shoots up . . . . .
The wine is bitter in the cup,
The roses, shriveled, — dry, —
Bitter and strained is our mirth . . . .
Old and gray the sky;
The last pale flame of the fire shoots up . . . . .
The wine is bitter in the cup,
The roses, shriveled, — dry, —
Bitter and strained is our mirth . . . .
Blackened and ash-strewn, the hearth gapes cold,
Shadows haunt the hall.
The wind alternately mutters and sighs.
The candle-flame flickers — dies . . . .
You vowed it, I recall,
“Never shall our love grow old!”
Shadows haunt the hall.
The wind alternately mutters and sighs.
The candle-flame flickers — dies . . . .
You vowed it, I recall,
“Never shall our love grow old!”